Modern Day Princess

god i hate myself! i've done nothing but make one mistake after another. first i chose the wrong testing center for my college entrance exam and now i have to find a way to fix it. i chosen the wrong thins for certain reasons. i had a fit with my best friend and i don't know it it will work out any more. i just want to curl up and cry right now!!!!!

*cry*

when will everything go back to normal!

*sigh*

finally my examinations are over. for the past three days i have only gotten around 4 hours of sleep, i had to study for my examinations. as i;m writing this blog i feel as my eyes have weights on them and are just waiting to fall down forcing me to sleep. if that isn't enough this saturday until sunday we have visitors in the house. not that it's a bad thing! =)i just wish i could get more sleep!!!!!

oh well!!! at least i get to see lumpia (that's what i call my baby cuz)

hehehehheheheheheheh!

i'm in school right now writing this blog. i have with me a crazy seatmate who is playing computer games, to my right is a guy who really is just acting crazy. all around the room are my other classmates going crazy with thier activities. while i'm writing this blog!

hehehehe! i just love our class! we're all crazy people! =)

my exams are coming up next week and we still have to dance this friday for our pe exams. the entire week i've done nothing but dance during my free time. my feet already hurt and were not even done yet. i have no idea what will become of our group?!?!?!?!?!? i am just praying that the rumors about us not having classes on friday i true so we can have more time to practice. life really sucks right now!!!!!!!

anybody wanna take my place?!?!?! hehehehehehehe =) that sure us wishful thinking... oh well i'll just pray for the best.

wish me luck!!!

=) =(

Ever since i started high school i've been riding in the same school bus or service as we call it here with two of my greatest friends. we even made a promise that until we graduate we would stay in the same service so that we could watch out for one another. unfortunately that promise was broken by one of us. he decided to transfer to another service. when i heard about his decision i felt sad and upset about it, he was like a kuya (older brother) to me. i tried to convince him to stay but his mind is already set, so i just let it go. i told myself that if he was happy with his choice i should be happy for him to. i sure am going to miss all the crazy things he does with us. at least his classroom is right next to mine and we one subject in common so we can still do some of the crazy stuff we do. But it feels weird that i won't see him first thing in the morning once i open our vans door. oh well i guess this is our destiny!

Unbelievable! i forgot to return our classroom key to the guard now i have to get to school earlier than i usually do so that i can open our classroom. no doubt our year level moderators gonna have a fit once he finds out about this. what am i gonna do??? good thing my adviser knows about it and she isn't the least bit mad. i just hope our year level moderator doesn't consider it as first offense violation! what the heck am i gonna do!

Finally the rush of hihgschool life has once again come to an end, and i have two whole days to relax until i have to do everything again! For this days blog i decided to wrte a little bit about who i am.shall we star?

well i'm only and youngest daughter of three kids i have a brother who is turning 20 and another is turning 18. my birthday is on april 12,1991. and ever since i was born i have never had a serious relationship with a guy! i wish i could! but i guess this is my destiny! i'm a fourth year high school student and i am our class president. i'm also the president for a school organization that i have been with for the past three years, and it's president for two years. my favorite color is pink. i love anything that has the color pink. i detest the color green, i have no idea why? my favorite author is janet dailey and caroline keene. i have a huge crush on harry potter!!! i'm sweet, fun loving an extremely caring and loving person. i want to take up consular and diplomatic affairs when i attend college, my biggest dream is to be able to go abroad, work in an outstanding job have a loving family of my own and live somewhere in london or the united kingdom.

i guess that's pretty much it! i wonder what tomorrow will bring me??? hmmmmmm!

only one more day till the weekend and yet i can't seem to enjoy it. for the entire week i've had nothing but a cold and a severe mograne that just doesn't want to quit! these are the moments where i wish i had someone special to lean on too. i feel that something inside of me is missing! i really wish i had someone special beside me right now! even as i'm writing this blog down i want to slam my head into a wall with how i feel. another contributor to my torture is the contest were having tomorrow at school and our representatives still don't know what to do! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! God i wish i can just sleep and feel as if this were only a dream!!!!!!

It's so unfair! I'm sixteen years old and yet i'm not allowed to go out with my friends!
I know that it's for my own good being the only girl in my family, but i can't help feeling as if i were missing a big part of my teenage years! just once i wish i could go out with my friends when they invite from time to time. I wish i can experience what they experience and not feel as if i'm in an invisible plastic bubble all my life! Oh well i guess this is my destiny only time will tell if it will ever change. I'll just have to wait and see! Take for instance this coming Thursday, a friend of mine invited me to go to the mall after school, but i don't know if my parents will even allow me to go! i seriously don't know what i'm supposed to do!