Modern Day Princess

Modern Day Princesshttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/It shows the day to day happenings in my life as the only girl in the family. you can see here my happy moments as well as the sad and exciting times.en-UShourly82000-01-01T12:00+00:00Modern Day Princesshttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/c1/bf94d1b3bf7d0e4d2550aacd1dc9d4_160x200.jpgI feel so stupid!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/12/10/i-feel-so-stupid-5197126/2008-12-10T10:26:36+01:00 <p class="center">i hate myself right now!</p> <p>of all the days for me to do something stupid it had to be today! why am i so dumb! i'm always a perfectionist, God i hate myself for mixing up those schedules creating problems for some of my peers<img src="/img/smilies/icon_confused.gif" alt=":-/" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>is college life really like this! i can't stand this failure of mine! i feel like crying already help me someone please! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_censored.gif" alt=">:XX" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_censored.gif" alt=">:XX" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/12/10/i-feel-so-stupid-5197126/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>i hate myself right now!

of all the days for me to do something stupid it had to be today! why am i so dumb! i'm always a perfectionist, God i hate myself for mixing up those schedules creating problems for some of my peers :-/

is college life really like this! i can't stand this failure of mine! i feel like crying already help me someone please! :'( :'( :'( >:XX >:XX

]]>NOT ALL THAT WELLhttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/07/29/not-all-that-well-4513672/2008-07-29T02:23:46+02:00 <p>GOD MY WEEK STARTED IN SUCH A TOTAL RUT!</p> <p>I CAN'T SPEAK....I FEEL LIKE I'M ABOUT TO COLLAPSE INTO A FEVER.....TO TOP IT OFF...O FEEL LIKE I HAVE ATON OF BRICKS ON MY BACK!</p> <p>GOD CAN THIS WEEK GET ANY WORSE?</p> <p>I FEEL LIKE CRYING ALREADY!!!!!!</p> <p>HUUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUUHUHUUHUHUUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/07/29/not-all-that-well-4513672/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>GOD MY WEEK STARTED IN SUCH A TOTAL RUT!

I CAN'T SPEAK....I FEEL LIKE I'M ABOUT TO COLLAPSE INTO A FEVER.....TO TOP IT OFF...O FEEL LIKE I HAVE ATON OF BRICKS ON MY BACK!

GOD CAN THIS WEEK GET ANY WORSE?

I FEEL LIKE CRYING ALREADY!!!!!!

HUUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUUHUHUUHUHUUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU

]]>A letter from Czy....my one true confidant!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/05/03/a-letter-from-czy-my-one-true-confidant-4124846/2008-05-03T06:36:49+02:00 <p>JAmOrAdS!</p> <p>"JAMORADS"</p> <p>That's what we fondly call our ever-so-generous-&-loving-MAYOR,</p> <p>Ms. Jezelle Maxine Amorado.</p> <p>Who would have thought that the girl I was taking in as an ARCHRIVAL at the first day of classes would be my LIFESAVER!</p> <p>And as what I see now will be one of my truly valued friends (or should I say BFF?) by the end of my journey in high school.</p> <p>She has done a lot of things not only for me but also for the whole class of LS402. I don't think our class would have ever survived the first semester of the year if not for her. She's a very responsible person. Would you believe that not only is she the mayor of our class but also the president of a certain organization in our school!(Forgive me Jez if the name of the organization slipped out of my mind.) Talk about big responsibilities. Imagine thinking about your class' status then about the org's activities!. I can't even handle my barkada or myself let alone worry about other people's welfares. Whew!.</p> <p>Another reason why I admire her is her open-mindedness. She is the person you can practically talk about anything without ever worrying about harsh opinions. We could talk for hours and hours nonstop if given the chance. She has a gentle and wonderful heart. She is also very thoughtful in so many ways. I can't find the words to explain how grateful I am that the Almighty God has given her to me. Although we have only been friends for several months now, I can already prove that this person is a reflection of</p> <p>TRUE BEAUTY.</p> <p>The second semester have just begun, and I look forward to having more learning experiences and adventures with her. With us being groupmates in English for our book report (together with Nikki, w/c by the way I am very thrilled about) and Physics in our I.P., I can't help but think about what awaits us. I do hope that as I learn may things from her, she does learn something from me too.</p> <p>And to my ever beloved Jez, I can't explain what feeling I have in my heart everytime I think of you. How grateful I am with you being a wonderful friend to me. Given & taught me so many things that in my perspective, I can never repay. I hope this friendship I share with you never stops blossoming. You need not to worry if ever you experience problems along the way, I may not be a big help but I assure you that I'll be there to share your suffering and try my best to cheer you up. I adore you in so many ways and idolize you for what you have achieved and done and what you are still doing. Just keep up the good work! Stay the same!. Never forget to praise & thank God!</p> <p>Love you KAPATID! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/05/03/a-letter-from-czy-my-one-true-confidant-4124846/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>JAmOrAdS!

"JAMORADS"

That's what we fondly call our ever-so-generous-&-loving-MAYOR,

Ms. Jezelle Maxine Amorado.

Who would have thought that the girl I was taking in as an ARCHRIVAL at the first day of classes would be my LIFESAVER!

And as what I see now will be one of my truly valued friends (or should I say BFF?) by the end of my journey in high school.

She has done a lot of things not only for me but also for the whole class of LS402. I don't think our class would have ever survived the first semester of the year if not for her. She's a very responsible person. Would you believe that not only is she the mayor of our class but also the president of a certain organization in our school!(Forgive me Jez if the name of the organization slipped out of my mind.) Talk about big responsibilities. Imagine thinking about your class' status then about the org's activities!. I can't even handle my barkada or myself let alone worry about other people's welfares. Whew!.

Another reason why I admire her is her open-mindedness. She is the person you can practically talk about anything without ever worrying about harsh opinions. We could talk for hours and hours nonstop if given the chance. She has a gentle and wonderful heart. She is also very thoughtful in so many ways. I can't find the words to explain how grateful I am that the Almighty God has given her to me. Although we have only been friends for several months now, I can already prove that this person is a reflection of

TRUE BEAUTY.

The second semester have just begun, and I look forward to having more learning experiences and adventures with her. With us being groupmates in English for our book report (together with Nikki, w/c by the way I am very thrilled about) and Physics in our I.P., I can't help but think about what awaits us. I do hope that as I learn may things from her, she does learn something from me too.

And to my ever beloved Jez, I can't explain what feeling I have in my heart everytime I think of you. How grateful I am with you being a wonderful friend to me. Given & taught me so many things that in my perspective, I can never repay. I hope this friendship I share with you never stops blossoming. You need not to worry if ever you experience problems along the way, I may not be a big help but I assure you that I'll be there to share your suffering and try my best to cheer you up. I adore you in so many ways and idolize you for what you have achieved and done and what you are still doing. Just keep up the good work! Stay the same!. Never forget to praise & thank God!

Love you KAPATID!

]]>A letter from Czy....http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/05/01/a-letter-from-czy-4118512/2008-05-01T14:06:45+02:00 <p>JAmOrAdS!</p> <p>"JAMORADS"</p> <p>That's what we fondly call our ever-so-generous-&-loving-MAYOR,</p> <p>Ms. Jezelle Maxine Amorado.</p> <p>Who would have thought that the girl I was taking in as an ARCHRIVAL at the first day of classes would be my LIFESAVER!</p> <p>And as what I see now will be one of my truly valued friends (or should I say BFF?) by the end of my journey in high school.</p> <p>She has done a lot of things not only for me but also for the whole class of LS402. I don't think our class would have ever survived the first semester of the year if not for her. She's a very responsible person. Would you believe that not only is she the mayor of our class but also the president of a certain organization in our school!(Forgive me Jez if the name of the organization slipped out of my mind.) Talk about big responsibilities. Imagine thinking about your class' status then about the org's activities!. I can't even handle my barkada or myself let alone worry about other people's welfares. Whew!.</p> <p>Another reason why I admire her is her open-mindedness. She is the person you can practically talk about anything without ever worrying about harsh opinions. We could talk for hours and hours nonstop if given the chance. She has a gentle and wonderful heart. She is also very thoughtful in so many ways. I can't find the words to explain how grateful I am that the Almighty God has given her to me. Although we have only been friends for several months now, I can already prove that this person is a reflection of</p> <p>TRUE BEAUTY.</p> <p>The second semester have just begun, and I look forward to having more learning experiences and adventures with her. With us being groupmates in English for our book report (together with Nikki, w/c by the way I am very thrilled about) and Physics in our I.P., I can't help but think about what awaits us. I do hope that as I learn may things from her, she does learn something from me too.</p> <p>And to my ever beloved Jez, I can't explain what feeling I have in my heart everytime I think of you. How grateful I am with you being a wonderful friend to me. Given & taught me so many things that in my perspective, I can never repay. I hope this friendship I share with you never stops blossoming. You need not to worry if ever you experience problems along the way, I may not be a big help but I assure you that I'll be there to share your suffering and try my best to cheer you up. I adore you in so many ways and idolize you for what you have achieved and done and what you are still doing. Just keep up the good work! Stay the same!. Never forget to praise & thank God!</p> <p>Love you KAPATID! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/05/01/a-letter-from-czy-4118512/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>JAmOrAdS!

"JAMORADS"

That's what we fondly call our ever-so-generous-&-loving-MAYOR,

Ms. Jezelle Maxine Amorado.

Who would have thought that the girl I was taking in as an ARCHRIVAL at the first day of classes would be my LIFESAVER!

And as what I see now will be one of my truly valued friends (or should I say BFF?) by the end of my journey in high school.

She has done a lot of things not only for me but also for the whole class of LS402. I don't think our class would have ever survived the first semester of the year if not for her. She's a very responsible person. Would you believe that not only is she the mayor of our class but also the president of a certain organization in our school!(Forgive me Jez if the name of the organization slipped out of my mind.) Talk about big responsibilities. Imagine thinking about your class' status then about the org's activities!. I can't even handle my barkada or myself let alone worry about other people's welfares. Whew!.

Another reason why I admire her is her open-mindedness. She is the person you can practically talk about anything without ever worrying about harsh opinions. We could talk for hours and hours nonstop if given the chance. She has a gentle and wonderful heart. She is also very thoughtful in so many ways. I can't find the words to explain how grateful I am that the Almighty God has given her to me. Although we have only been friends for several months now, I can already prove that this person is a reflection of

TRUE BEAUTY.

The second semester have just begun, and I look forward to having more learning experiences and adventures with her. With us being groupmates in English for our book report (together with Nikki, w/c by the way I am very thrilled about) and Physics in our I.P., I can't help but think about what awaits us. I do hope that as I learn may things from her, she does learn something from me too.

And to my ever beloved Jez, I can't explain what feeling I have in my heart everytime I think of you. How grateful I am with you being a wonderful friend to me. Given & taught me so many things that in my perspective, I can never repay. I hope this friendship I share with you never stops blossoming. You need not to worry if ever you experience problems along the way, I may not be a big help but I assure you that I'll be there to share your suffering and try my best to cheer you up. I adore you in so many ways and idolize you for what you have achieved and done and what you are still doing. Just keep up the good work! Stay the same!. Never forget to praise & thank God!

Love you KAPATID!

]]>Graduation Success!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/04/11/graduation-success-4030312/2008-04-11T15:26:01+02:00 <p> To all my friends here in blog.co.uk i apologize for not being able to reply as often as i used to... also for not updating what has been happening to me the past few weeks... well the title of this blog says it all... I jezelle maxine have finally graduated.</p> <p> It all happened last April 4, 2008 in our schools gymnasium... it's one event that i shall never forget... my friends and classmates smile will forever in my heart. It was on this day that I realized that my four years of hard work and service to both my school and less fortunate members of our community had not gone in vain. I received the St. Brother Miguel Award for my service in the Catechetical and Religious Emissaries organization of our school. this award was also given to a student whom of which excelled in the field of catechism. i proudly ascended on to the stage and happily received the medal... i finally fulfilled my parents dream of having a child graduate with an award.</p> <p> As my fellow La Sallians and throw our caps in joy and relief knowing that our hardships and journeys are over, i realized that a chapter of my life has finally closed and it's time to move on into a life that will have more surprises and challenges in stored for me. Moving onto my college life i courageously walk with my head up high and confidence knowing that i can achieve far greater things in life because i carry on my shoulders years of knowledge and guidance from people who love and support.</p> <p> i wish to thank my family who never lost hope in me, my friends who are far to many to even fit here whom of which were all there for me for both my ups and downs, my teachers and administrators who helped hone my knowledge and skills and most of all God and the Holy Family who protected me all these years and hopefully will continue to protect and bless me as i enter a new chapter of my life. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/04/11/graduation-success-4030312/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p> To all my friends here in blog.co.uk i apologize for not being able to reply as often as i used to... also for not updating what has been happening to me the past few weeks... well the title of this blog says it all... I jezelle maxine have finally graduated.

It all happened last April 4, 2008 in our schools gymnasium... it's one event that i shall never forget... my friends and classmates smile will forever in my heart. It was on this day that I realized that my four years of hard work and service to both my school and less fortunate members of our community had not gone in vain. I received the St. Brother Miguel Award for my service in the Catechetical and Religious Emissaries organization of our school. this award was also given to a student whom of which excelled in the field of catechism. i proudly ascended on to the stage and happily received the medal... i finally fulfilled my parents dream of having a child graduate with an award.

As my fellow La Sallians and throw our caps in joy and relief knowing that our hardships and journeys are over, i realized that a chapter of my life has finally closed and it's time to move on into a life that will have more surprises and challenges in stored for me. Moving onto my college life i courageously walk with my head up high and confidence knowing that i can achieve far greater things in life because i carry on my shoulders years of knowledge and guidance from people who love and support.

i wish to thank my family who never lost hope in me, my friends who are far to many to even fit here whom of which were all there for me for both my ups and downs, my teachers and administrators who helped hone my knowledge and skills and most of all God and the Holy Family who protected me all these years and hopefully will continue to protect and bless me as i enter a new chapter of my life.

]]>Finally Leavinghttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/03/03/finally-leaving-3810952/2008-03-03T16:20:28+01:00 <p>I'm finally leaving this place i called home for the past 10 to 11 years of my life. and i just can't wait. i'm sick and tired of living in a place where i feel so trapped by everyone around me. the worst part is that the people keeping me trapped most of the time are the people around me. If they love me that much why do they still treat me like a child? for Gods sake I'm sixteen, girls my age around the world have done almost everything girls at my age should do. plus they live lives that no one interferes. but for me it's different. i have no problems being open with my family. i let them read my messages on my phone, know every secret that i have and let them know of my every move. it's just so frustrating that whenever i try to make some alone time for myself they keep interfering, and if i want to keep certain things private they will do almost everything to get it out of me. i know it's partially my fault since i choose to be open with them, but they also have to learn to give me my space. I'm no 10 anymore, I'm growing up and somethings need to be kept private.</p> <p>I'm glad I'm finally leaving for college, it's my chance to have some time for myself and catch up on the things i should have done while i was in high school. I'm going to miss my family, no doubt about that, but i think the coming next three years will do us some good.</p> <p>thanks for those who took time to read my blog and i hope you had a better day than i did! God Bless!</p> <p>*hug*</p> <p>love lots!<img src="/img/smilies/icon_confused.gif" alt=":-/" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/03/03/finally-leaving-3810952/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I'm finally leaving this place i called home for the past 10 to 11 years of my life. and i just can't wait. i'm sick and tired of living in a place where i feel so trapped by everyone around me. the worst part is that the people keeping me trapped most of the time are the people around me. If they love me that much why do they still treat me like a child? for Gods sake I'm sixteen, girls my age around the world have done almost everything girls at my age should do. plus they live lives that no one interferes. but for me it's different. i have no problems being open with my family. i let them read my messages on my phone, know every secret that i have and let them know of my every move. it's just so frustrating that whenever i try to make some alone time for myself they keep interfering, and if i want to keep certain things private they will do almost everything to get it out of me. i know it's partially my fault since i choose to be open with them, but they also have to learn to give me my space. I'm no 10 anymore, I'm growing up and somethings need to be kept private.

I'm glad I'm finally leaving for college, it's my chance to have some time for myself and catch up on the things i should have done while i was in high school. I'm going to miss my family, no doubt about that, but i think the coming next three years will do us some good.

thanks for those who took time to read my blog and i hope you had a better day than i did! God Bless!

*hug*

love lots! :-/

]]>success!!!!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/02/21/success~3760017/2008-02-21T13:16:43+01:00 <p>i got in! i really got in!!! my dream has finally come true. i got the results of my entrance exam from the college i wanted to go to, i was so happy that i was accepted. i can't wait to move in with my grandparents this summer!!</p> <p>* jumps for joy*</p> <p>thanks to everyone who prayed for me!!!!</p> <p>love lotS!!!!</p> <p>*hug* </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/02/21/success~3760017/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>i got in! i really got in!!! my dream has finally come true. i got the results of my entrance exam from the college i wanted to go to, i was so happy that i was accepted. i can't wait to move in with my grandparents this summer!!

* jumps for joy*

thanks to everyone who prayed for me!!!!

love lotS!!!!

*hug*

]]>uncertainhttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/02/14/uncertain~3726613/2008-02-14T13:35:08+01:00 <p> My graduation is coming up soon and it means i have to go off to college pretty soon. I have my mind set in studying in a college away from my parents, although it's just about 2 and 1/2 hours away and i will be living with my grandparents in their home in manila i can't shake off the feeling that i'm not that sure about my decision as i think i do. It's probably anxiety as my friends would call it being that it would be my first time in years since i've been separated from my family. but i think it's just me and my fear of not being able to meet their expectations while i'm there. </p> <p> there are days that i'm confident and ready to go but sometimes i go back to my old personality and crawl back to the nice little spot beside my mom. i'm also uncertain about my course, i originally wanted to take up consular and diplomatic affairs but that all changed last weekend when my grandfather pep talked me back into taking up law as i previously planned when i was younger. </p> <p> everything just seems to have derailed, my plans, my choices and even my self confidence when the fact that i'm graduating in a couple of weeks finally sank in! <img src="/img/smilies/grayconfused.gif" alt=":??:" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> why can't everything be as simple as picking what flavor ice cream you like or whether to wear pink or not!!!!!!<img src="/img/smilies/graysigh.gif" alt=":**:" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> i just feel so stressed and ready to burst into tears and shout out the uncertainty inside me and finally move on!!!</p> <p> has high school made me crazy or is this just normal for a graduating student at my age?!?!?!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2008/02/14/uncertain~3726613/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p> My graduation is coming up soon and it means i have to go off to college pretty soon. I have my mind set in studying in a college away from my parents, although it's just about 2 and 1/2 hours away and i will be living with my grandparents in their home in manila i can't shake off the feeling that i'm not that sure about my decision as i think i do. It's probably anxiety as my friends would call it being that it would be my first time in years since i've been separated from my family. but i think it's just me and my fear of not being able to meet their expectations while i'm there.

there are days that i'm confident and ready to go but sometimes i go back to my old personality and crawl back to the nice little spot beside my mom. i'm also uncertain about my course, i originally wanted to take up consular and diplomatic affairs but that all changed last weekend when my grandfather pep talked me back into taking up law as i previously planned when i was younger.

everything just seems to have derailed, my plans, my choices and even my self confidence when the fact that i'm graduating in a couple of weeks finally sank in! :??:

why can't everything be as simple as picking what flavor ice cream you like or whether to wear pink or not!!!!!! :**:

i just feel so stressed and ready to burst into tears and shout out the uncertainty inside me and finally move on!!!

has high school made me crazy or is this just normal for a graduating student at my age?!?!?!

]]>i'm lucky to have brothers!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/10/06/i_m_lucky_to_have_brothers~3093361/2007-10-06T12:49:20+02:00 <p>I realized that i am so lucky to have brothers. life is great having them around! heheheheheh</p> <p>to everyone who has brothers be happy that you have someone to lean on to!</p> <p>hehehehehe! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/10/06/i_m_lucky_to_have_brothers~3093361/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I realized that i am so lucky to have brothers. life is great having them around! heheheheheh

to everyone who has brothers be happy that you have someone to lean on to!

hehehehehe!

]]>reality of life (dedicated to my friends who just lost their grandmother)http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/09/22/reality_of_life_dedicated_to_my_friends_~3022276/2007-09-22T14:05:35+02:00 <p>Losing someone is a very difficult thing to bare. i should know i just lost my uncle five months ago, and i still haven't recovered from it. I was so devastated when my friend text messaged me this evening about her grandmothers sudden death. she loved her so much and i felt her pain the instant i received her message. she and her other siblings are like family to me and i can just imagine how their feeling right now.If i ever lost anyone of my grandparents i might not be able to recover for at least a year. To my friends who know me very well they know that i have this sort of gift wherein i can sense and even dream of certain events before they occur. I've seen people die, I've seen people suffer, I've even seen myself staring into my great grandfathers coffin just two months before his passing. You can just imagine my shock to be staring right at the same coffin the day of his funeral.</p> <p>This gift of mine acted up yesterday when i came to school. before i went inside our classroom i was feeling great, then my friend suddenly noticed my expression changed from happy to sad. i started feeling like i was about to cry, i told a friend that i felt that something wrong was going to happen. when the day passed and nothing happened i ignored the feeling, then i realized tonight that maybe that feeling was me sensing my friends grandmothers death. </p> <p>i really can't explain it, i somehow felt connected with my friend and as she knew and that i knew something was going to happen. i think i was the last person she ever talked about her grandmother. this experience has happened to me in the past, the other experience was the day before my best friends dad died and i was the last person he talked about his dads activities and the same night my adviser text messaged me about his dads passing.</p> <p>i guess i just have to accept these occurrences as one of Gods missions for me in my life and that i have to be there for them no matter what.</p> <p>to everyone who is reading this blog all i can say is treasure each moment you have with your loved ones. you never know when they will suddenly disappear from your side. also remember that God will be the only one to tell us that this is the end of the road and that we will be at his side forever.</p> <p>goodnight for those in the Philippines and good morning to those half around the world reading this blog. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/09/22/reality_of_life_dedicated_to_my_friends_~3022276/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Losing someone is a very difficult thing to bare. i should know i just lost my uncle five months ago, and i still haven't recovered from it. I was so devastated when my friend text messaged me this evening about her grandmothers sudden death. she loved her so much and i felt her pain the instant i received her message. she and her other siblings are like family to me and i can just imagine how their feeling right now.If i ever lost anyone of my grandparents i might not be able to recover for at least a year. To my friends who know me very well they know that i have this sort of gift wherein i can sense and even dream of certain events before they occur. I've seen people die, I've seen people suffer, I've even seen myself staring into my great grandfathers coffin just two months before his passing. You can just imagine my shock to be staring right at the same coffin the day of his funeral.

This gift of mine acted up yesterday when i came to school. before i went inside our classroom i was feeling great, then my friend suddenly noticed my expression changed from happy to sad. i started feeling like i was about to cry, i told a friend that i felt that something wrong was going to happen. when the day passed and nothing happened i ignored the feeling, then i realized tonight that maybe that feeling was me sensing my friends grandmothers death.

i really can't explain it, i somehow felt connected with my friend and as she knew and that i knew something was going to happen. i think i was the last person she ever talked about her grandmother. this experience has happened to me in the past, the other experience was the day before my best friends dad died and i was the last person he talked about his dads activities and the same night my adviser text messaged me about his dads passing.

i guess i just have to accept these occurrences as one of Gods missions for me in my life and that i have to be there for them no matter what.

to everyone who is reading this blog all i can say is treasure each moment you have with your loved ones. you never know when they will suddenly disappear from your side. also remember that God will be the only one to tell us that this is the end of the road and that we will be at his side forever.

goodnight for those in the Philippines and good morning to those half around the world reading this blog.

]]>my mistake!!!!!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/25/my_mistake~2866536/2007-08-25T07:35:04+02:00 <p>god i hate myself! i've done nothing but make one mistake after another. first i chose the wrong testing center for my college entrance exam and now i have to find a way to fix it. i chosen the wrong thins for certain reasons. i had a fit with my best friend and i don't know it it will work out any more. i just want to curl up and cry right now!!!!!</p> <p>*cry* <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>when will everything go back to normal!</p> <p>*sigh* <img src="/img/smilies/grayno.gif" alt=":no:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/25/my_mistake~2866536/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>god i hate myself! i've done nothing but make one mistake after another. first i chose the wrong testing center for my college entrance exam and now i have to find a way to fix it. i chosen the wrong thins for certain reasons. i had a fit with my best friend and i don't know it it will work out any more. i just want to curl up and cry right now!!!!!

*cry* :'(

when will everything go back to normal!

*sigh* :no:

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]]>i'm so tired!!!!!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/10/i_m_so_tired~2786347/2007-08-10T14:36:30+02:00 <p>finally my examinations are over. for the past three days i have only gotten around 4 hours of sleep, i had to study for my examinations. as i;m writing this blog i feel as my eyes have weights on them and are just waiting to fall down forcing me to sleep. if that isn't enough this saturday until sunday we have visitors in the house. not that it's a bad thing! =)i just wish i could get more sleep!!!!!</p> <p>oh well!!! at least i get to see lumpia (that's what i call my baby cuz) </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/10/i_m_so_tired~2786347/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>finally my examinations are over. for the past three days i have only gotten around 4 hours of sleep, i had to study for my examinations. as i;m writing this blog i feel as my eyes have weights on them and are just waiting to fall down forcing me to sleep. if that isn't enough this saturday until sunday we have visitors in the house. not that it's a bad thing! =)i just wish i could get more sleep!!!!!

oh well!!! at least i get to see lumpia (that's what i call my baby cuz)

]]>crazy crazyhttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/02/crazy_crazy~2741438/2007-08-02T01:49:06+02:00 <p>hehehehheheheheheheh!</p> <p>i'm in school right now writing this blog. i have with me a crazy seatmate who is playing computer games, to my right is a guy who really is just acting crazy. all around the room are my other classmates going crazy with thier activities. while i'm writing this blog!</p> <p>hehehehe! i just love our class! we're all crazy people! =) </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/02/crazy_crazy~2741438/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>hehehehheheheheheheh!

i'm in school right now writing this blog. i have with me a crazy seatmate who is playing computer games, to my right is a guy who really is just acting crazy. all around the room are my other classmates going crazy with thier activities. while i'm writing this blog!

hehehehe! i just love our class! we're all crazy people! =)

]]>my aching feethttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/01/my_aching_feet~2737954/2007-08-01T12:57:18+02:00 <p>my exams are coming up next week and we still have to dance this friday for our pe exams. the entire week i've done nothing but dance during my free time. my feet already hurt and were not even done yet. i have no idea what will become of our group?!?!?!?!?!? i am just praying that the rumors about us not having classes on friday i true so we can have more time to practice. life really sucks right now!!!!!!!</p> <p>anybody wanna take my place?!?!?! hehehehehehehe =) that sure us wishful thinking... oh well i'll just pray for the best.</p> <p>wish me luck!!!</p> <p>=) =( </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/08/01/my_aching_feet~2737954/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>my exams are coming up next week and we still have to dance this friday for our pe exams. the entire week i've done nothing but dance during my free time. my feet already hurt and were not even done yet. i have no idea what will become of our group?!?!?!?!?!? i am just praying that the rumors about us not having classes on friday i true so we can have more time to practice. life really sucks right now!!!!!!!

anybody wanna take my place?!?!?! hehehehehehehe =) that sure us wishful thinking... oh well i'll just pray for the best.

wish me luck!!!

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]]>Last Day with Ushttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/31/last_day_with_us~2732168/2007-07-31T13:09:40+02:00 <p>Ever since i started high school i've been riding in the same school bus or service as we call it here with two of my greatest friends. we even made a promise that until we graduate we would stay in the same service so that we could watch out for one another. unfortunately that promise was broken by one of us. he decided to transfer to another service. when i heard about his decision i felt sad and upset about it, he was like a kuya (older brother) to me. i tried to convince him to stay but his mind is already set, so i just let it go. i told myself that if he was happy with his choice i should be happy for him to. i sure am going to miss all the crazy things he does with us. at least his classroom is right next to mine and we one subject in common so we can still do some of the crazy stuff we do. But it feels weird that i won't see him first thing in the morning once i open our vans door. oh well i guess this is our destiny! <img src="/img/smilies/graysigh.gif" alt=":**:" class="middle" border="0"><br> <p class="center"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/31/last_day_with_us~2732168/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Ever since i started high school i've been riding in the same school bus or service as we call it here with two of my greatest friends. we even made a promise that until we graduate we would stay in the same service so that we could watch out for one another. unfortunately that promise was broken by one of us. he decided to transfer to another service. when i heard about his decision i felt sad and upset about it, he was like a kuya (older brother) to me. i tried to convince him to stay but his mind is already set, so i just let it go. i told myself that if he was happy with his choice i should be happy for him to. i sure am going to miss all the crazy things he does with us. at least his classroom is right next to mine and we one subject in common so we can still do some of the crazy stuff we do. But it feels weird that i won't see him first thing in the morning once i open our vans door. oh well i guess this is our destiny! :**:

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]]>forgetful me!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/29/forgetful_me~2719499/2007-07-29T07:26:10+02:00 <p>Unbelievable! i forgot to return our classroom key to the guard now i have to get to school earlier than i usually do so that i can open our classroom. no doubt our year level moderators gonna have a fit once he finds out about this. what am i gonna do??? good thing my adviser knows about it and she isn't the least bit mad. i just hope our year level moderator doesn't consider it as first offense violation! what the heck am i gonna do! <img src="/img/smilies/grayconfused.gif" alt=":??:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/29/forgetful_me~2719499/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Unbelievable! i forgot to return our classroom key to the guard now i have to get to school earlier than i usually do so that i can open our classroom. no doubt our year level moderators gonna have a fit once he finds out about this. what am i gonna do??? good thing my adviser knows about it and she isn't the least bit mad. i just hope our year level moderator doesn't consider it as first offense violation! what the heck am i gonna do! :??:

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]]>Rest Day!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/28/rest_day~2714705/2007-07-28T06:57:47+02:00 <p>Finally the rush of hihgschool life has once again come to an end, and i have two whole days to relax until i have to do everything again! For this days blog i decided to wrte a little bit about who i am.shall we star?</p> <p>well i'm only and youngest daughter of three kids i have a brother who is turning 20 and another is turning 18. my birthday is on april 12,1991. and ever since i was born i have never had a serious relationship with a guy! i wish i could! but i guess this is my destiny! i'm a fourth year high school student and i am our class president. i'm also the president for a school organization that i have been with for the past three years, and it's president for two years. my favorite color is pink. i love anything that has the color pink. i detest the color green, i have no idea why? my favorite author is janet dailey and caroline keene. i have a huge crush on harry potter!!! i'm sweet, fun loving an extremely caring and loving person. i want to take up consular and diplomatic affairs when i attend college, my biggest dream is to be able to go abroad, work in an outstanding job have a loving family of my own and live somewhere in london or the united kingdom. </p> <p>i guess that's pretty much it! i wonder what tomorrow will bring me??? hmmmmmm! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/graysmilewinkgrin.gif" alt=";D" class="middle" border="0"><br> <p class="center"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/28/rest_day~2714705/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Finally the rush of hihgschool life has once again come to an end, and i have two whole days to relax until i have to do everything again! For this days blog i decided to wrte a little bit about who i am.shall we star?

well i'm only and youngest daughter of three kids i have a brother who is turning 20 and another is turning 18. my birthday is on april 12,1991. and ever since i was born i have never had a serious relationship with a guy! i wish i could! but i guess this is my destiny! i'm a fourth year high school student and i am our class president. i'm also the president for a school organization that i have been with for the past three years, and it's president for two years. my favorite color is pink. i love anything that has the color pink. i detest the color green, i have no idea why? my favorite author is janet dailey and caroline keene. i have a huge crush on harry potter!!! i'm sweet, fun loving an extremely caring and loving person. i want to take up consular and diplomatic affairs when i attend college, my biggest dream is to be able to go abroad, work in an outstanding job have a loving family of my own and live somewhere in london or the united kingdom.

i guess that's pretty much it! i wonder what tomorrow will bring me??? hmmmmmm!

]]>feeling under the weatherhttp://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/26/feeling_under_the_weather~2705010/2007-07-26T13:51:15+02:00 <p>only one more day till the weekend and yet i can't seem to enjoy it. for the entire week i've had nothing but a cold and a severe mograne that just doesn't want to quit! these are the moments where i wish i had someone special to lean on too. i feel that something inside of me is missing! i really wish i had someone special beside me right now! even as i'm writing this blog down i want to slam my head into a wall with how i feel. another contributor to my torture is the contest were having tomorrow at school and our representatives still don't know what to do! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! God i wish i can just sleep and feel as if this were only a dream!!!!!!<img src="/img/smilies/grayupset.gif" alt=":##" class="middle" border="0"><br> <p class="center"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/26/feeling_under_the_weather~2705010/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>only one more day till the weekend and yet i can't seem to enjoy it. for the entire week i've had nothing but a cold and a severe mograne that just doesn't want to quit! these are the moments where i wish i had someone special to lean on too. i feel that something inside of me is missing! i really wish i had someone special beside me right now! even as i'm writing this blog down i want to slam my head into a wall with how i feel. another contributor to my torture is the contest were having tomorrow at school and our representatives still don't know what to do! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! God i wish i can just sleep and feel as if this were only a dream!!!!!! :##

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]]>It's so Unfair!!!!http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/23/it_s_so_unfair~2684170/2007-07-23T04:40:12+02:00 <p> It's so unfair! I'm sixteen years old and yet i'm not allowed to go out with my friends!<br> I know that it's for my own good being the only girl in my family, but i can't help feeling as if i were missing a big part of my teenage years! just once i wish i could go out with my friends when they invite from time to time. I wish i can experience what they experience and not feel as if i'm in an invisible plastic bubble all my life! Oh well i guess this is my destiny only time will tell if it will ever change. I'll just have to wait and see! Take for instance this coming Thursday, a friend of mine invited me to go to the mall after school, but i don't know if my parents will even allow me to go! i seriously don't know what i'm supposed to do!<img src="/img/smilies/grayconfused.gif" alt=":??:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/23/it_s_so_unfair~2684170/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p> It's so unfair! I'm sixteen years old and yet i'm not allowed to go out with my friends!
I know that it's for my own good being the only girl in my family, but i can't help feeling as if i were missing a big part of my teenage years! just once i wish i could go out with my friends when they invite from time to time. I wish i can experience what they experience and not feel as if i'm in an invisible plastic bubble all my life! Oh well i guess this is my destiny only time will tell if it will ever change. I'll just have to wait and see! Take for instance this coming Thursday, a friend of mine invited me to go to the mall after school, but i don't know if my parents will even allow me to go! i seriously don't know what i'm supposed to do! :??:

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]]>16 feeling 30http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/21/16_feeling~2675740/2007-07-21T14:06:51+02:00 <p class="center">I know the title sounds like a movie but it actually reflects how i feel. i'm a sixteen year old girl, and like any other teen my age i want to go out with my friends. But this isn't so easy in my case. Being an only girl in the family my parents have grown quite protective of me. just like a princess i have to always be careful and i always have to ask for permission in advance. i know it's for my own good and i thank my parents for it. if it weren't for their love and care i wouldn't be half the person i am today.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://jez1291pink.blog.co.uk/2007/07/21/16_feeling~2675740/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I know the title sounds like a movie but it actually reflects how i feel. i'm a sixteen year old girl, and like any other teen my age i want to go out with my friends. But this isn't so easy in my case. Being an only girl in the family my parents have grown quite protective of me. just like a princess i have to always be careful and i always have to ask for permission in advance. i know it's for my own good and i thank my parents for it. if it weren't for their love and care i wouldn't be half the person i am today.

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