Losing someone is a very difficult thing to bare. i should know i just lost my uncle five months ago, and i still haven't recovered from it. I was so devastated when my friend text messaged me this evening about her grandmothers sudden death. she loved her so much and i felt her pain the instant i received her message. she and her other siblings are like family to me and i can just imagine how their feeling right now.If i ever lost anyone of my grandparents i might not be able to recover for at least a year. To my friends who know me very well they know that i have this sort of gift wherein i can sense and even dream of certain events before they occur. I've seen people die, I've seen people suffer, I've even seen myself staring into my great grandfathers coffin just two months before his passing. You can just imagine my shock to be staring right at the same coffin the day of his funeral.

This gift of mine acted up yesterday when i came to school. before i went inside our classroom i was feeling great, then my friend suddenly noticed my expression changed from happy to sad. i started feeling like i was about to cry, i told a friend that i felt that something wrong was going to happen. when the day passed and nothing happened i ignored the feeling, then i realized tonight that maybe that feeling was me sensing my friends grandmothers death.

i really can't explain it, i somehow felt connected with my friend and as she knew and that i knew something was going to happen. i think i was the last person she ever talked about her grandmother. this experience has happened to me in the past, the other experience was the day before my best friends dad died and i was the last person he talked about his dads activities and the same night my adviser text messaged me about his dads passing.

i guess i just have to accept these occurrences as one of Gods missions for me in my life and that i have to be there for them no matter what.

to everyone who is reading this blog all i can say is treasure each moment you have with your loved ones. you never know when they will suddenly disappear from your side. also remember that God will be the only one to tell us that this is the end of the road and that we will be at his side forever.

goodnight for those in the Philippines and good morning to those half around the world reading this blog.